I've always had a weird heart. I've never drank a Red Bull or anything like that because I knew my heart would palpitate, or beat hard, or whatever it does that's weird and makes me feel funny. I can't smoke weed (not that I would now anyway) because instead of mellowing me, it makes my heart do this weird thing again. I'm not even sure it's my heart, it just feels like it. When I was pregnant with Shey, it started doing the strange beat, skip a beat, beat hard thing, and I went to the cardiologist, but they could never find anything wrong. After I had Shey, it went away, and I figured it was just the extra blood flow and strain on my body. Well, it's back now. (Don't even mention that I might be pregnant, ha ha, so NOT funny.) Last month, it would happen sometimes when I smoked a cigarette, but I've stuck to my resolution, and I haven't had one in 12 days, and it's still doing it. I'm not drinking obsene amounts of caffeinne either. I cut out my sodas for New Years too, and I may drink a cup of coffee a day, and not always that either. When I'm sitting at my desk all day, it doesn't seem to bother me as much, but when I walk in the door at night, it acts up.
It's almost like mini panic attacks, or from what people have described to me. There's the funny beats, then I feel like I can't get any oxygen in. I can still function, and I try not to freak out, so I don't think it is a panic attack. Maybe just anxiety in general. I wish it would just go away. I so don't want to go to the doctor about this.