Friday, January 12, 2007

Heart to Heart

I've always had a weird heart. I've never drank a Red Bull or anything like that because I knew my heart would palpitate, or beat hard, or whatever it does that's weird and makes me feel funny. I can't smoke weed (not that I would now anyway) because instead of mellowing me, it makes my heart do this weird thing again. I'm not even sure it's my heart, it just feels like it. When I was pregnant with Shey, it started doing the strange beat, skip a beat, beat hard thing, and I went to the cardiologist, but they could never find anything wrong. After I had Shey, it went away, and I figured it was just the extra blood flow and strain on my body. Well, it's back now. (Don't even mention that I might be pregnant, ha ha, so NOT funny.) Last month, it would happen sometimes when I smoked a cigarette, but I've stuck to my resolution, and I haven't had one in 12 days, and it's still doing it. I'm not drinking obsene amounts of caffeinne either. I cut out my sodas for New Years too, and I may drink a cup of coffee a day, and not always that either. When I'm sitting at my desk all day, it doesn't seem to bother me as much, but when I walk in the door at night, it acts up.

It's almost like mini panic attacks, or from what people have described to me. There's the funny beats, then I feel like I can't get any oxygen in. I can still function, and I try not to freak out, so I don't think it is a panic attack. Maybe just anxiety in general. I wish it would just go away. I so don't want to go to the doctor about this.


Mel said...

I think you should definitely go see a doctor about this, and don't leave until they agree to test the heck out of you. Don't mess around. It could be some sort of anxiety thing, but it could also be something physical. You need to know.

Ballpoint Wren said...

Yes, I think you should go to a doctor, but I believe there's a great chance all will be well. I have a few friends who've had similar symptoms but after tests it always proved to be nothing.

I get funny little palpitations just before my period starts, so you might start charting and see when they happen. It could be hormonal.

Nicole said...

That's what Aaric had. They put him on a beta blocker, and that's it. He's actually stopped taking his meds, and seems to be doing better.